All my delight

All my delight is in You, Lord. All of my hope, all of my strength forevermore...

Thank you Lord for this year, for the joy, laughter and love you bring. Thank you for the pain, the hurts and the tears I've shed this year. Thank you for the strength, comfort and for your unfailing presence reminding me that You were always near. Thank you for the love of my family and friends. Thank you for letting me experience the thing called "LOVE", yet the greatest love that anyone could ever know is in You.
Thank you for making me pass the PNLE, for the work you have given me and for your everyday protection. Thank you for my first ever monthly salary, for the 13th month and 14th month pay and for all the salaries to come. (hahahaha!)
Thank you for teaching me how to love, how to live, to let go and to move on. Thank you for those people you brought into my life Lord, for those who loved and hurt me-- they'd taught me very well. Thank you Lord for my friends, they are all dear to me and even for the "new found ones". What more can I say Lord? You have given me more than EVERYTHING. And I believe that there is still more. So much blessings I have received, thank you thank you LORD.
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i love you!

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Love love love

in love in love in love! i'm back, we're back... finally!♥ a month of struggle, a month of dilemma, a month of doubts and fears but everything turned out superb and it's all worth fighting for. Definitely no regrets and all I can say "we are in love!"

I want you to know...

Today, all I want is you. I want you to know how much I love you. And with that, I want to share my beliefs, my faith and my God. I want you to know the Greatest Person in the whole world, that He died for you and me. That His love is so great that it able to conquer and saved the world from sin and death. I am praying that you will know Him personally as your Lord and Savior. Each day and night, I prayed for your safety, protection and salvation, and continually praying. As the second concerned person in your life (I guess), I want you to know Jesus just as I know Him. I know He loves you so much, He wants to show you everything more than what life can give you. Because I deeply believe in my heart that if you have Him in your life, you'll have peace, joy, love and even great things beyond any person can fathom. The world may pass away, but He will never. He is the same God, yesterday, today and forever (Hebrews 13:8). He is with you where ever you go. He is knocking in your heart, waiting for you to let Him in. He knows whatever problems you're in right now, He wants you to know that He is always there for you and loves you. All you need to do is to come to Him and lay down all your burdens (1 Peter 5:7). He is the Father you have been looking for all your life. He is the perfect Father (Matthew 5:48). He wants you to know that He is not distant or angry, but He is the complete expression of love (1 John 4: 16). Today, I wish you could see my heart. I am praying for you and your family. God loves you and He has a great plan for you. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11) And one day, He will wipe every tear from your eyes. (Revelation 21:4)
Right now, I am praying for you. I hope you could read this, I know it's not too late to know and accept Jesus in your life. He is the God of many chances but please don't wait for tomorrow, for tomorrow never comes.

I love you and always will.
God bless you more!♥

inlurv again?

Is it because of this song? or am i inlove again?
Thank you for the chance and I'll forever cherish it...♥
...We will be changed forever, and I take them gladly. For where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. I eagerly anticipate the chance to grow together, getting to know the man you will become, and falling in love a little more every day...

White Dress- Ben Rector
So do you remember?
With your white dress on
It was the end of December
Count the days till dawn

I never knew
That I could love someone
The way that I love you
I never knew
That I could love someone
The way that I love you
I never knew
That I could love someone
The way that I love you
I never knew
I never knew

She's coming on Friday
And then the close spark
Cause it's just minutes & highways
Till the one I love
The one I love
Till oh...

That I could love
That I could love
That I could love someone
That you could love
That you could love someone like me
Oh, that I could love
That I could love
That I could love someone like
That you could love someone like me

♥♥♥
Thank you for coming into my life... ily and imy!♥

it hurts that's why i have to...

='(
This song is so damn true, and damn maka relate ko!!!
Sometimes we have to let go the things that cannot be. We have to face reality (by eldridge esmalde), though it hurt so bad, have to move on and live. Life's so short mitch, don't make it shorter...
I'm too young for this game, forever is too early, too blurry. I don't want another one time lover, another x. Now I know I wasn't thinking before, that's why I'm always ending up with Mr. wrong. Learning from the past, don't wanna make a mistake, he could be Mr. Right or could be a fake...
All in all, one thing I've learned, there's no detour in getting to know a person, like the saying "It takes a lifetime to know a person". (Lesson re-learned!)


That's what love can do
I don't want to break your heart in two
and leave you crying
thats what love can do, oh no
I want you to know
Im letting you go

You're just a fool
You say i'm number one
And you'll always be true
How can this be
You say you've fallen inlove
You dont know what it means

Look around and you will see
Broken promises and jealousy
is that what you should want for us to be
one time lover turned enemy

But that's what love can do
I dont want to break your heart in two
and leave you crying
thats what love can do, oh no
I want you to know
Im letting you go

All I can say is that
I'm looking no further ahead than today
Too young for this game
on the road to forever
we don't know the way

So just forget about eternity
All the promises we just can't keep
Look down any street that's what you'll see
I don't want to bring you to your knees...


You're the best i ever had and i love you so much, 427653

Hate-Expunge

"Forgive and forget Mitch..." here I go again. Here I go on and blinded by truth, or shall I say I'm trying to be blind? I'm happy, happily broken. Masukista ka mitch? Dili baya ka ing-ana... karon lang. Ano meron sa kanya? I guess "trust" can be given second time around or even the third time. It's not how many times you had forgiven, it's how long can you bear to be with him, to love you once again and to trust.

Only Weeks that we've been together, getting to know each other and dating. A week after he told me he love me, then a week after I responded, then a week after we we're official. Well, I'm still guessing what will happen next week? A week after next week and weeks to come.
I guess I really do love him. I never had this kind of feeling before. I miss him when we're not together even for an hour, i miss him when he's away and even when he's close to me. I love when he tries to hold my hand while driving the car. I love when he tries to steal a moment from me and tells me how much he loves me. I love the way he stares me while saying this words: i love you. I love him and will always love him.

So you see, It's not how many times you had been hurt or forgiven, it's how much love you can give... over and over again.♥

hurt much...

I hate YELLOW... I hate boys, I hate first hi's and hello's, I hate flowers, I hate chocolates, I hate dating, I hate missing someone, I hate this word->iloveyou, I hate imy and ily, I hate endearment, I hate promises, I hate falling in love so deep and I hate trusting someone over and over again...='(

Trust is a hard thing to just give someone, and it's an even harder thing to handle when someone breaks that trust. Over the years, I had to learn that not everyone in the world can be as trustworthy as I thought. -christinalegustagalletas

November 2009 Nursing Licensure Exam results!

tendrengdeng!!!
The results were released; my heart was pounding and beating so hard… grabe akong palpitation. After I attended the Mover’s night in our church, my classmate (Febi Joy) texted me that results were already been released at inquirer.net. I was in my room that time, pacing back and forth, after 5 minutes I took courage and get up out of my bed to check the result. While taking every step out of my room, I guess my blood pressure rise up to 140/90 (guess lang) hahaha! Turn on the computer, took a deep breath, breathe in and out. Windows Xp loading… xet! Kadugay! hahaha… the computer was prolonging my agony. I typed in www.inquirer.net, and heck super bagal tagal ng computer. While waiting, I prayed for the last minute(hahaha toink! Pahabol…) and continue praising the Lord. The first article I’ve encountered “November ’09 nursing board exams result out”. The article stated “Total of 37, 527 out of 94,462 nursing graduates passed the November, 2009 licensure examination.” Whaaattt!!! My Heart was beating and pounding so fast. I slowly moved the mouse and point the cursor to the link for the complete list of the Board passers. While loading, I prayed again and again. I have to admit, my faith was shaking when I found out 37,000+ only passed the examination. But indeed, God is the source of everything, of my faith and my strength. I hold on to His promises, that He will never leave us nor forsake us and that He has a plan and a future for me. “LORD, ikaw na bahala, I lift up everything to you.” When I finally reached Family names of Fernandez, I took a deep long breath, swallowed some saliva and closed my right eye (as if afraid of looking at the actual results). At last, the moment of truth… “FERNANDEZ, MARY JANE PARANIS, FERNANDEZ, MENCHIE GRACE QUINTELA… 14756 FERNANDEZ, MICHELLE ROSE FEROLIN!!!” waaahhh! I jumped out of the chair! I was shouting “RN nako, RN nako!!!” My mom and my older brother who were watching PBB get up and see the results themselves. We were all laughing and crying and shouting, mixed emotions, tears of joy! My dad who was about to sleep, get up and out of the room. Amazingly, he didn’t asked what was the locomotion all about. He just cried and hugged me tight. Wow!!! Such a wonderful feeling to see the smile on their faces. Actually, it took me awhile to cry…hahaha! Phones and cellphones simultaneously were ringing, text message were on flood! The joy and happiness were teeming on those messages! And at last, I smoothly breathe in and out once again. We gathered together as a family, we prayed and thanked GOD for all He has done to my life, to my family and even to my journey as a pupil, a student and a REGISTERED NURSE. THANK U KAAYO LORD!!!

Likewise, congratulations to all of my fellow classmates and batch mates who passed the PHILIPPINE NURSING LICENSURE EXAMINATION. Indeed, God is so faithful; He has always been there for us. For those who did not make it, I know God has still a plan, a purpose and a future for you. He is still faithful; He is the same God yesterday, today and forever. He will never leave you, He is still there for you. In His time, He will make all things beautiful…
THE BEST GIFT EVER THIS YEAR 2010 AND STILL MORE TO COME! Imoha jud ni tanan LORD! Thank you thank you sooo much! Words are not enough to express how happy and joyful I am at this very moment! All I can say is TO GOD BE THE GLORY! All honor and glory and adoration belongs to you LORD! AMEN!♥♥♥


Roll of Successful Examinees in the
NURSE LICENSURE EXAMINATION
Held on NOVEMBER 29 & 30, 2009 Page:297 of 752
Released on JANUARY 30, 2010


Seq. No. N a m e

14751 FERNANDEZ, MARVIN DUCULAN
14752 FERNANDEZ, MARY ANN JOYCE ANTONIO
14753 FERNANDEZ, MARY CARLEEN INGLES
14754 FERNANDEZ, MARY JANE PARANIS
14755 FERNANDEZ, MENCHIE GRACE QUINTELA
14756 FERNANDEZ, MICHELLE ROSE FEROLIN
14757 FERNANDEZ, MIRIAM DORADO
14758 FERNANDEZ, NATASSIA MARIA ORTIZ
14759 FERNANDEZ, OPAL MARIE ORTIZ
14760 FERNANDEZ, RACHEL ANGELICA QUINDO
14761 FERNANDEZ, RAFAEL EDWARD BUSQUE
14762 FERNANDEZ, REILYN CAIBIGAN
14763 FERNANDEZ, RENATO JR ROAQUIN
14764 FERNANDEZ, REY JAYME
14765 FERNANDEZ, REYNALD OBRA
14766 FERNANDEZ, RNELLE' CLAIRE BALTAZAR
14767 FERNANDEZ, RODA SUERTE
14768 FERNANDEZ, RODEN ADRIAN SISON
14769 FERNANDEZ, ROLAND AGUILAR
etc...
complete list of board passers are on this link:::
from inquirer.net! thank u INQUIRER!
http://newsinfo.inquirer.net/examresults/NURSE/20100131/NURSE__C.htm

Concealment

Might sound nuts na... The other night, I was pacing back and forth in my room (as if murag dako pud akng kwarto..haha!). Can’t help but to think about my what-the-heck xBFs. Though I didn’t bother to count them 'cause it irritates me, and keep hating myself about those decisions I had made in the past. However, the feeling of being dumped (yes, gayud! nafeel na jud nako na, sa wakas!) and be the one to dumped them were the ones occupying my bird brain. gRRR!! Wa na gani'y sulod akng utok, kana pa jud ang cgeg balik2... WTH!!! It's difficult to look back at a broken relationship and suddenly feel that he wasn’t the person I supposed to be with. Argg! Is being in a relationship with someone has to be that difficult? I invested my time and emotions just ended up wasted. For me, love is something that only comes around once in a loooong while. When I found it, I am willing to do whatever I can to hold onto it forever. But it seems like I’m losing grip every time I hold on to “them” too much…irony! I’m tired, oh so tired of changing my status in FB, FS and changing from one to uhmm… you know. Not just that, tired of giving my heart to someone whose not even worthy to have it. “I know I wasn’t thinking before that’s why I always ended up with MR. WRONG”.

My CI told me to rest my heart for a year or so, well I did for about 4 months and then found a guy whom I thought would change everything, including my world. ‘Twas a “perfect love story” as quoted by my classmate, kasi nga 4 years niya daw akong hinintay... whatever! However, our relationship lasted for 3 months. WOW! Perfect jud noh? Sequentially, after our break up I met another guy and courted me (tendrengdeng!!! Pamati!) Well, ana si Phil: hoi, respituha ang 3 months rule! The what??? The 3 months rule, after the break up, must wait for 3 months for me to flirt, to entertain or to date (etc) another guy. Aw? Mao vah?hahaha… dunno about those stuff uie! But then again, I did follow the 3 months rule. And so I had another bf, but it wasn’t a serious relationship. Then after a month, we broke up knowing that we don’t really love each other pala. Heck Mitch?! Collecting boys is not your game! Sad to say, he’s my 10th bf. Sigh… sigh… sigh… Right now, I’m scared of falling in love. Em scared of the word L-O-V-E. I’ve learned a lot from my past and I don’t want to make another mistake. I want to take this seriously, still hoping to find LOVE once again, not now but in His time. Though waiting might not be that easy but it sure is worthy!

From the song “I’m not missing u” by Stacie orrico. In fairness, nice pud iyang mga kanta…

""Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?
No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone and that’s life.""

10th

"10^th"

Tugsh!!! I bumped my head again and again and again… symptoms of autism? Nope, symptoms of katangahan ever!!! I’m spinning around in circles, heart and in “X” form; dunno what to do with this daze-heart of mine. Im not sure if it’s me who has a problem with the thing should I call “love” or the other I so-called my “ex”.

I guess you’re wondering why 10^th? Well, honestly kasi he’s my 10^th what-the-heck boyfriend. I wanna cry na tlga! 2 more to go and eureka! They will soon reach a dozen. I keep on telling (reprimanding najud!) myself to be cautious every time this heart starts to beat, ‘cause when it beat, it’s fatal! I tried to be the best girlfriend(perfect one), what went wrong? I guess I shouldn’t try after all, I was not being myself anymore. I was trying to be somebody else— just to please others. Am I doing what I think or supposed to be right? It’s like killing my real self, deviate from my principles and totally ignoring my own feelings. What have I done? I tethered my heart, now she’s suffering, dying. Huhuhu… drama noh? Now she’s trying to put together the broken pieces (again). Mitch, pag mata!!! Huhuhu…help!

me, myself and i

dunno how to start... mmm... (after 30 mins)... wala pa rin eh... GOSH! about myself lang wala pa akong maisulat. hmpf! Hirap para maging blogger, lalo na if shortage and limited ang words mo. haha! heck!