November 2009 Nursing Licensure Exam results!

tendrengdeng!!!
The results were released; my heart was pounding and beating so hard… grabe akong palpitation. After I attended the Mover’s night in our church, my classmate (Febi Joy) texted me that results were already been released at inquirer.net. I was in my room that time, pacing back and forth, after 5 minutes I took courage and get up out of my bed to check the result. While taking every step out of my room, I guess my blood pressure rise up to 140/90 (guess lang) hahaha! Turn on the computer, took a deep breath, breathe in and out. Windows Xp loading… xet! Kadugay! hahaha… the computer was prolonging my agony. I typed in www.inquirer.net, and heck super bagal tagal ng computer. While waiting, I prayed for the last minute(hahaha toink! Pahabol…) and continue praising the Lord. The first article I’ve encountered “November ’09 nursing board exams result out”. The article stated “Total of 37, 527 out of 94,462 nursing graduates passed the November, 2009 licensure examination.” Whaaattt!!! My Heart was beating and pounding so fast. I slowly moved the mouse and point the cursor to the link for the complete list of the Board passers. While loading, I prayed again and again. I have to admit, my faith was shaking when I found out 37,000+ only passed the examination. But indeed, God is the source of everything, of my faith and my strength. I hold on to His promises, that He will never leave us nor forsake us and that He has a plan and a future for me. “LORD, ikaw na bahala, I lift up everything to you.” When I finally reached Family names of Fernandez, I took a deep long breath, swallowed some saliva and closed my right eye (as if afraid of looking at the actual results). At last, the moment of truth… “FERNANDEZ, MARY JANE PARANIS, FERNANDEZ, MENCHIE GRACE QUINTELA… 14756 FERNANDEZ, MICHELLE ROSE FEROLIN!!!” waaahhh! I jumped out of the chair! I was shouting “RN nako, RN nako!!!” My mom and my older brother who were watching PBB get up and see the results themselves. We were all laughing and crying and shouting, mixed emotions, tears of joy! My dad who was about to sleep, get up and out of the room. Amazingly, he didn’t asked what was the locomotion all about. He just cried and hugged me tight. Wow!!! Such a wonderful feeling to see the smile on their faces. Actually, it took me awhile to cry…hahaha! Phones and cellphones simultaneously were ringing, text message were on flood! The joy and happiness were teeming on those messages! And at last, I smoothly breathe in and out once again. We gathered together as a family, we prayed and thanked GOD for all He has done to my life, to my family and even to my journey as a pupil, a student and a REGISTERED NURSE. THANK U KAAYO LORD!!!

Likewise, congratulations to all of my fellow classmates and batch mates who passed the PHILIPPINE NURSING LICENSURE EXAMINATION. Indeed, God is so faithful; He has always been there for us. For those who did not make it, I know God has still a plan, a purpose and a future for you. He is still faithful; He is the same God yesterday, today and forever. He will never leave you, He is still there for you. In His time, He will make all things beautiful…
THE BEST GIFT EVER THIS YEAR 2010 AND STILL MORE TO COME! Imoha jud ni tanan LORD! Thank you thank you sooo much! Words are not enough to express how happy and joyful I am at this very moment! All I can say is TO GOD BE THE GLORY! All honor and glory and adoration belongs to you LORD! AMEN!♥♥♥


Roll of Successful Examinees in the
NURSE LICENSURE EXAMINATION
Held on NOVEMBER 29 & 30, 2009 Page:297 of 752
Released on JANUARY 30, 2010


Seq. No. N a m e

14751 FERNANDEZ, MARVIN DUCULAN
14752 FERNANDEZ, MARY ANN JOYCE ANTONIO
14753 FERNANDEZ, MARY CARLEEN INGLES
14754 FERNANDEZ, MARY JANE PARANIS
14755 FERNANDEZ, MENCHIE GRACE QUINTELA
14756 FERNANDEZ, MICHELLE ROSE FEROLIN
14757 FERNANDEZ, MIRIAM DORADO
14758 FERNANDEZ, NATASSIA MARIA ORTIZ
14759 FERNANDEZ, OPAL MARIE ORTIZ
14760 FERNANDEZ, RACHEL ANGELICA QUINDO
14761 FERNANDEZ, RAFAEL EDWARD BUSQUE
14762 FERNANDEZ, REILYN CAIBIGAN
14763 FERNANDEZ, RENATO JR ROAQUIN
14764 FERNANDEZ, REY JAYME
14765 FERNANDEZ, REYNALD OBRA
14766 FERNANDEZ, RNELLE' CLAIRE BALTAZAR
14767 FERNANDEZ, RODA SUERTE
14768 FERNANDEZ, RODEN ADRIAN SISON
14769 FERNANDEZ, ROLAND AGUILAR
etc...
complete list of board passers are on this link:::
from inquirer.net! thank u INQUIRER!
http://newsinfo.inquirer.net/examresults/NURSE/20100131/NURSE__C.htm

Concealment

Might sound nuts na... The other night, I was pacing back and forth in my room (as if murag dako pud akng kwarto..haha!). Can’t help but to think about my what-the-heck xBFs. Though I didn’t bother to count them 'cause it irritates me, and keep hating myself about those decisions I had made in the past. However, the feeling of being dumped (yes, gayud! nafeel na jud nako na, sa wakas!) and be the one to dumped them were the ones occupying my bird brain. gRRR!! Wa na gani'y sulod akng utok, kana pa jud ang cgeg balik2... WTH!!! It's difficult to look back at a broken relationship and suddenly feel that he wasn’t the person I supposed to be with. Argg! Is being in a relationship with someone has to be that difficult? I invested my time and emotions just ended up wasted. For me, love is something that only comes around once in a loooong while. When I found it, I am willing to do whatever I can to hold onto it forever. But it seems like I’m losing grip every time I hold on to “them” too much…irony! I’m tired, oh so tired of changing my status in FB, FS and changing from one to uhmm… you know. Not just that, tired of giving my heart to someone whose not even worthy to have it. “I know I wasn’t thinking before that’s why I always ended up with MR. WRONG”.

My CI told me to rest my heart for a year or so, well I did for about 4 months and then found a guy whom I thought would change everything, including my world. ‘Twas a “perfect love story” as quoted by my classmate, kasi nga 4 years niya daw akong hinintay... whatever! However, our relationship lasted for 3 months. WOW! Perfect jud noh? Sequentially, after our break up I met another guy and courted me (tendrengdeng!!! Pamati!) Well, ana si Phil: hoi, respituha ang 3 months rule! The what??? The 3 months rule, after the break up, must wait for 3 months for me to flirt, to entertain or to date (etc) another guy. Aw? Mao vah?hahaha… dunno about those stuff uie! But then again, I did follow the 3 months rule. And so I had another bf, but it wasn’t a serious relationship. Then after a month, we broke up knowing that we don’t really love each other pala. Heck Mitch?! Collecting boys is not your game! Sad to say, he’s my 10th bf. Sigh… sigh… sigh… Right now, I’m scared of falling in love. Em scared of the word L-O-V-E. I’ve learned a lot from my past and I don’t want to make another mistake. I want to take this seriously, still hoping to find LOVE once again, not now but in His time. Though waiting might not be that easy but it sure is worthy!

From the song “I’m not missing u” by Stacie orrico. In fairness, nice pud iyang mga kanta…

""Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?
No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone and that’s life.""

10th

"10^th"

Tugsh!!! I bumped my head again and again and again… symptoms of autism? Nope, symptoms of katangahan ever!!! I’m spinning around in circles, heart and in “X” form; dunno what to do with this daze-heart of mine. Im not sure if it’s me who has a problem with the thing should I call “love” or the other I so-called my “ex”.

I guess you’re wondering why 10^th? Well, honestly kasi he’s my 10^th what-the-heck boyfriend. I wanna cry na tlga! 2 more to go and eureka! They will soon reach a dozen. I keep on telling (reprimanding najud!) myself to be cautious every time this heart starts to beat, ‘cause when it beat, it’s fatal! I tried to be the best girlfriend(perfect one), what went wrong? I guess I shouldn’t try after all, I was not being myself anymore. I was trying to be somebody else— just to please others. Am I doing what I think or supposed to be right? It’s like killing my real self, deviate from my principles and totally ignoring my own feelings. What have I done? I tethered my heart, now she’s suffering, dying. Huhuhu… drama noh? Now she’s trying to put together the broken pieces (again). Mitch, pag mata!!! Huhuhu…help!

me, myself and i

dunno how to start... mmm... (after 30 mins)... wala pa rin eh... GOSH! about myself lang wala pa akong maisulat. hmpf! Hirap para maging blogger, lalo na if shortage and limited ang words mo. haha! heck!