"10th"
Tugsh!!! I bumped my head again and again and again… symptoms of autism? Nope, symptoms of katangahan ever!!! I’m spinning around in circles, heart and in “X” form; dunno what to do with this daze-heart of mine. Im not sure if it’s me who has a problem with the thing should I call “love” or the other I so-called my “ex”.
I guess you’re wondering why 10th? Well, honestly kasi he’s my 10th what-the-heck boyfriend. I wanna cry na tlga! 2 more to go and eureka! They will soon reach a dozen. I keep on telling (reprimanding najud!) myself to be cautious every time this heart starts to beat, ‘cause when it beat, it’s fatal! I tried to be the best girlfriend(perfect one), what went wrong? I guess I shouldn’t try after all, I was not being myself anymore. I was trying to be somebody else— just to please others. Am I doing what I think or supposed to be right? It’s like killing my real self, deviate from my principles and totally ignoring my own feelings. What have I done? I tethered my heart, now she’s suffering, dying. Huhuhu… drama noh? Now she’s trying to put together the broken pieces (again). Mitch, pag mata!!! Huhuhu…help!
You don't need to be so hard on yourself. Be yourself. In the end, that's what all us guys will look for --even if we don't realize it on the outset. Just don't close your heart just yet. That would probably become the gravest injustice you will deal yourself. Open it slowly and cautiously, and someday, someone will come along and fill the hole in your heart. Take time, pray, and walk with God all throughout.:)
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